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Monday, September 1, 2008

Birthday Reflections

10:44 PM |

Thoughts on the eve of a birthday...

As I sit here this evening reflecting on the last year and the last 9 years I am actually filled with this sense of satisfaction. Does satisfaction mean that I don't want more out of my life? Not at all. But what it means is that I feel good about all that I have managed to accomplish and happy with the decisions I've made. I often criticize my friends who have this 'glass half empty' approach to life and had to take a minute to check myself; to make sure I am not guilty of the same mentality. This was hard place to reach because it's so easy to see what's wrong. It's easy to see the extra weight, the struggling bank account, the broken furniture, the bills and creditors. It's harder to look at what you've managed to finish and realize that you are making progress. I'm sitting here on the eve of my 20's still wanting to do more with myself in the next year so I don't feel like I completely wasted my 20's. But in the same breath not feeling bad about what I still have left to do; being happy that I have accomplished what I have.

I've learned a lot of lessons, made a lot of changes, and grown a lot. I've taken a few steps backwards, lost my self and am on the path to finding my true self again. I've completed 2 degrees, traveled to some really nice places, tried new foods, met new great people, lived away from home, bought a couple of houses, cars, started my career, started my business, loved and loss. I've done a lot and still have so far to go and I am excited about the possibilities.

I'm happy to know that I can make it now. By myself, and with the support (sometimes) and love of others, I've done well. And if I take hold of all the things I've learned over the years, continue to set goals and work hard towards those goals I know I can make this last year of 20's even better. I thank all that have been with me and I truly appreciate your input, your ear, your shoulder, your support and your love. I hope I have been there for you all as much as you have been there for me.

Hugs and Smooches,


Lawrenorder said...

~Move~ ha ha. Funny.
Well, as we say around the house, no one said it would be easy. But you've done it. Gone out there in the world and made a place for yourself. Whether it's the place you wanted or not, you're doing what you need to and that is to be commended. Quit showing off so I can blend back into the background and we'll be all good. It's not easy being a independent-dependent and your self-sufficiency is making me look bad. :-) Happy B-day sis... you're still old.