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Thursday, October 6, 2005


11:55 PM |

My girl Brooklyn Sarah has asked that I answer these questions with her in my blogg tonight. So here we go.

10 Years ago:

I was 16. Looking back that was one of the best years of my life. I passed my drivers test the first try. The first of my girls to get a car...well not get a car, got my mom's old Mercedes Benz. But man, I worked that car!! My crew was in a slight unrest because two of them were having issues with eachother. Over a boy of course. I got to see Boys II Men in concert for my birthday. Then for my girls birthday later in that year I got to see the Phattest Hip Hop Tour in the 95. I saw Jodeci, Aaliyah, Biggie, Mary, and so many other's I can't think of right now. Amazing. I just remember the freedom. I little part time job so I had some driving cash. Going to Mio's/Tony's Pizza for the lunch specail EVERY DAY. It was a great feeling and something that I did not take advantage of or even realize what I was experiencing then. That's how it always is.

1 Year ago:

I was the most depressed I've ever been. 25 and had no clue about what I was going to do. Had graduated but no job. No job prospects. Living in self doubt, because realistically when you've interviewed as many times as I had and still had no job, you start to believe it's you. I was unsure about everything. I don't think that's a place I want to visit right now.

Tomorrow I will:

Spend a chunk of my day teaching a program I'm unsure of, with new kids for 3 hours. Then I'll hang around for a brief moment and go and get my money from this client. FINALLY. And that's all I know. If it's raining tomorrow, then I'll just be chilling at the house.

5 top locations I'd like to run away to:

In no particular order-
1. Hawii because I've never been
2. Cali cause I'm just curious
3. Some carribean island
4. NY
5. Spain

5 things I'd do with 1000 bucks:

1. Pay bills
2. Pay bills
3. Pay bills
4. Buy something I need like a bra or something i don't need like some shoes
5. Eat

5 bad habits I have;

1. Licking my fingers when I'm eating
2. Playing in my hair
3. Tuneing out people
4. Cursing
5. Digging under my nails

5 tv shows I like:

1. Girlfriends
2. House
3. The Shield
4. Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends
5. Family Guy

5 biggest joys at the moment:

1. I'm working doing somethng I like
2. Ritz chips in sour cream and onion
3. I'm breathing
4. I've got the greatest friends on the planet
5. Cartoons like the Boondocks

Ok. I think that's that. Not nearly as deep, but my mind is scattered at the moment.

Saturday, October 1, 2005


12:24 AM |

So as I rolled my self off the couch the other night to get some dinner, I decided that I was going to do what I had been thinking about for the last two weeks and get some doughnuts. Lucky for me the Hot light was on and I picked up the obligatory dozen (because to get 6 assorted variety costs comment on that for right now) and returned to my home. I ate my meal and just let the doughnuts sit. For 6 hours they sat there. Though I wanted to eat, I was too full with Wendy's. Finally I got tired and decided to drag myself to bed, but I said FIRST....I MUST HAVE A DOUGHNUT. I can't go to bed. Not with out one....I mean the hot light was on.....HOT LIGHT....that means fresh. Just one.....but nooooo.....I didn't eat just one.......I had two. RIght before bed. Scarfed them down like it was my last meal. And ploped in the bed. Woke up this morning....not hungry mind you. And ate 2 or more. In total today I believe I had 5. And they have just settled in my stomach like cement. Now I've seen the Unrapped on Food Nework about the thing. But something magnetic is in that doughnut. Something, that makes eat it though you are so bubbling on the inside. The hot light draws you to the store like a mosquito to a zapper! I've got a friend who will eat those things in lieu of dinner. OOOO you're a slick one Mr. Kreme. I don't know how you do what you do but I got your number. And now....for a doughnut.


12:11 AM |

This is a poem by another talented poet I know ;) Enjoy.

His mind's eye is open to the world eternal
culture, society, science, fiction
and the universe;
He who dreams are fantasy bound
mystic lands, magical kingdoms, mystical quests, enchanted forests
and supernatural beings;
He whose own soul is rooted to Mother Earth
like the mighty Oak
deeply embedded,solid as the mountains;
He whose very essence burns brighter than the sun
and as brilliant as the Northern sky,
elegant as a single winter rose;
He whose words echos the moral pains into the night
sorrow, love, happiness, sadness, lust and passion;
He whose words flow like a stream in an untouched forest
pure, majestic, life giving;
O' yes
To sip from his stream is to drink from Mother Earth's bosom,
to stand in it is to bask in the glory of the ages
He who is the Poet
the teller of the past
the seer of the future
the keeper of time
the overseer of creation.